sherlyn's musings.

11:32 PM
Friday, November 28, 2003

listening to // unwell :: matchbox 20
feeling // hyper!

*bounces around the room* just got back from kallang netball center. went to see peilin play!! she was so cool. she can really stretch man. i must stretch and jump higher!! *determined* i must work hard and be like her! accurate shots, movements and stuff. she played GS!! so got rough idea of movements and stuff. and i saw yeeleen and pat too!! ah, i missed pat. haven't seen her in a looong time. she looks so cute when she ties her fringe up. should have got a pic with her. haha. and her smile is still as nice. love her smile~ mmms. oh! yeeleen's passes are so fantastic! fast, hard and straight. must do more passes with the wall~!!!! gee. nevermind, i'll start slowly. you all just wait and see. =) and i finally met eve jie!! she's so super, extremely uber cute. and she's the sweetest jie around i bet. she made this sweet thingy for me!! i love her to bits. *glomps*

so, this morning we had netball day camp. morning, usual training and drills and stuff. and the sec 3s got to tekan to lower sec!! muahahaha. but being the usual kind me, didn't tekan them la. just made empty threats. after that. played game. my legs are dying!! my gosh, everytime i walk the muscle pulls. and after all the running just now, i hope it heals in time for carnival. i really wanna play. =S so i gotta take care of it when i go overseas. don't overstrain too much by shopping. hee. i'm a self-confessed shopaholic. =^.^= but anyways, shan't stray. played this eat-the-apple-without-your-hands game. lol.. tiff's group was so cute.

ended off early cos it was raining super heavily. so took chance, went down to yishun to collect my phone cover. and when i finally got there, they said "oh i'm sorry it's not here yet." IT'S SUPPOSED TO BE THERE BY 4PM!! i was late by and hour and a half. so i called up the company. "i thought the guy went to yishun?" you thought. everybody thinks, you're not stupid. *rolls eyes* the reason is so outrageous i could sue. stupid company. i ought to go practice my formal letter writing now. that company is gonna be so killed by me and my words. bloody hell.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

5:48 PM
Wednesday, November 26, 2003

listening to // bring me to life :: evanesance
feeling // like crying.

how i wish my tears would fall so i can wet my eyes. stupid contact lenses. and i ran out of eye drops. argh!!! gotta get more soon. i keep blinking and my eyes are dying. training was alright today. and i think my stamina improved!! cos i was jumping around and yakking away with audrey when we were running but i didn't pant like some dog. =D mmms. got tekan-ed by ms lee. but at least now fitness improved. after that did the usual drills and passes and stuff. and my legs ached like mad!! must be the captain's ball thinger. hope it heals soon. but i seriously doubt so. my schedule next week is crazy! but at least i get to see peilin for one last time before. =D hope peilin, yeeleen and pat can make it for our seniors farewell chalet. will wanna thank them personally. eve jie, if you're reading this. don't worry, i'll get lots and losta pictures. and i realised i really can't get along with most acs(i) people. ^_^ aiite, will go play gunbound now with the help of chu. i'm improving man!! damn, i'm good.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

11:02 PM
Monday, November 24, 2003

listening to // first love :: utada hikaru
feeling // snappy

thanks to jiashu for the song. i realised i'm thanking everyone for songs. but anyways. yeah. had training today and mr goh was scary!! he was like having moodswings. scary dude he is. and wierd. one more session with him and i won't be seeing him anymore! he's exactly like mdm teo. first session makes it damn fun. and the following ones would be like shit. i'm starting to dread training now. except on saturdays that is. =D peilin spurs my passion for netball. she's the best coach ever. she's so dedicated and committed. i don't care if there are people better than her skill-wise. she has the X factor. i'm not lesbian if you're wondering. she just deserves my utmost respect and admiration.

went for some inter-church sports carnival thinger with serena, tiff goh and tiff ng. and we played really well!! did a lot of lunges. will help in netball. ahaha. got to meet up with serena's church friends whom i haven't seen for ages. especially ian and donny. oh, eudora was there too! she's so cool. and pretty too. and she has this lock of hair. which is a mix of brown, blonde and white. so it's like... streaks. really nice. and it's natural too. lucky her eh? don't even need to dye, won't get caught. groovy. haha. also made new friends like shun qing and the most irritating but funny team manager on earth - jonathan. XD but i had lotsa fun there. too bad i won't be in singapore to play the finals. humph. =( but the boys didn't do as well. they lost their last match by one point!! darn. but they put up a good fight! and the tian ping keep coming out with all the patterns. but still, empty stunt. the poor lambs. and there was this guy... WAAAAAAAAAH. when he jumps, it's as if he's flying. damn super cool! he lifts like 30cm to 40 cm above ground. like FWAAAAAAH!! O_O if only i can jump that high man. uber coolness man. and i think his name is roy. if not wrong. my dory memory can only store a limited number of words/images. =D then went to collect new goldfish from tiffany's dad! haha, i got 3 new fishys now. i like the small ones. they're so round and fat and cute!! heee. ^_^ aiiite. time to sleep now. i got a new bear today. his name is miguel. he's my new best friend. he's there when i need him. he listens when i talk. and he loves me unconditionally! =)

**Cent fois, sans toi
j'ai cherche ma route
Sans foi, ni loi
Seule avec mes doutes
Je t'attends...

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

12:13 PM
Sunday, November 23, 2003

listening to // je t'attends :: axelle red
feeling // sleepy

miss listening to that song. =) being hyper yesterday sapped up most of my energy so i will continue the entry today. met up with celina and her mon, went for lunch then to FSB's charity concert at paragon yesterday. am so proud of kathryn!! haha. -hugs- and shifu and william! at least we managed to attract a crowd. *beams* we're a gold band that's why!!! haha. then a few josephians came up to us to ask for donations. being able to understand how it felt asking for donations, wanted to take pity on them so decided to donate to them after the concert. buttt - after the concert they disappeared. -_-" oh wells. so went down to heeren to buy kat's present. and i owe cfoo $12.50. went to eat crePes and creme and the oreo oreo oreo wasn't that fantastic. it didn't even taste like oreo. =S

went for church after that. had bible study and SMT. and i got to know a new friend! haha, like diao. whatever. she's rather cool. reminds me of jemi alot~ soft spoken and her voice is super cute. haha. and her smile too. wasn't really concentrating much during SMT cos i felt quite feverish. just managed to squeeze some stuff out of my brain la. i think my SPG must have thought i was blabbering. who gives anyway. someone was especially cold. but it didn't really bother me. ha! after YF went for dinner at heartland mall and i think they were pissed at us cos we were walking instead of taking the car. o_O *shrugs* well, if 2 guys in my school can get booked for laughing. they have reason to get pissed cos we were walking. 'nuff said. bought happy meal and i got this really cute brother bear toy!! now gonna get the whole collection. lol, i'm childish. i know. i prefer to know it as being young at heart. ^_^ was quite late when we left. so zhiqiang sent cor and i home. but before that we went to his house to see his fishy!! got one super hyper-active one. haha. then yeah. got home. SLEEEEEP. that's my life in a nutshell.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

12:04 PM
Saturday, November 22, 2003

listening to // can you feel the love tonight :: s club 7
feeling // happily wonky!

*bounces around the room* i'm so happy!!! haha, that's how wonky i am. =D not a biggie to most people out there, but it means alot to me. peilin came to school and coached us today!! am so glad to see her again. we did our drills and we were all off. and peilin was like "aiyooo. you all ahhhh. so long never excercise is it!? next time ah.. must make you all do PT already. muahahaha!!" lol, her expression was so cute. after that we played box and pissed her off a little. but she cooled down when we told her our group names. she called the group with bright neon yellow bibs the traffic police. the other three were called bodoh, cramps and strawberry. -_-" diaos. but it was super funny. "bodoh throw in!" lol... during the match amanda was a serial killer. knocking into everyone and pushing them by accident. even her own team mates! and peilin was like "waaaaah. amanda ah. you in taekwondo or netball ar?" haha, in the end traffic police won and she went "the law still prevails!!" haha. she's so cute. (^_^) too bad i won't be in singapore next saturday for her training. i love her. and i feel so much better too. she's such a stress-reliever. and i thank God for her. =)

**blessed child-

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

12:04 PM
Friday, November 21, 2003

listening to // played alive :: safri duo
feeling // hyper

lol, gunbound's fun. well, i'm a newbie. sue me. and i finally know how i feel. "and all the world is a stage. both men and women merely players. they have their exits and entrances. and their acts being seven ages." yeah. =) aiite, now to visit new fairfield to get my stuff. and then meet chu to go settle scores with some company before i sue it.

been having wierd dreams lately. and they're all recurring dreams. wonder if it's a sign. and, alot of deja vu has been happening around me. it's scary. it's as if i'm going through the same experience again and again. or i've seen it somewhere before. i'm sortta scared.

[edit]okay, to all those who didn't read this entry before i deleted it. too bad. *biii-dah* it was too... dead. well, though i'm feeling empty and incomplete these days. there's a light in your eyes i used to see, there was a place in my heart where you used to be. was i wrong to assume you were waiting for me? there's a light in your eyes, would you leave that light burning for me? i'll make an effort to cheer myself up. i'll just pray and i know He'll hear me. [/edit.timecheck // 9.48pm]

**pie jesu, dona eis requiem-

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

11:32 PM
Thursday, November 20, 2003

listening to // agogo mosse :: safri duo
feeling // wierd

thanks to ken for the song. =) back from the netballer's pot luck. gladys ng's house is damn difficult to find but at least i got there. phew~ so, cooked my tom yam soup and didn't take much of it. like, two bowls of it. and i gave up. and there was still one big giant pot left. wooops. auntie teo cooked carbonara, gladys hoo cooked corn soup, tiff goh cooked some tuna bread, aud made cheese cake, tiff ng made baked rice, jamie made macaroni and cheese and gladys made... some chicken thingy i think. but i didn't eat like, half of what's on the table. and we had a so called movie marathon. but watched bits of this and that. the only movie that we finished watching was nemo! i'll probably learn to speak whale again. heh.

have you ever felt wierd but you didn't know what's bothering you? i sure did. well, will go sleep it off. still gotta collect stuff from kathryn tomorrow. argh, i'm feeling lazy. sue me~

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

11:19 PM
Wednesday, November 19, 2003

listening to // thousand miles :: vanessa carlton
feeling // drained

i am back from gunung belumut!! i have lived so i will tell the tales. haha... actually, nothing much really. but it was a learning experience. living in the great outdoors was rather fun. especially the natural air-con! and cooking in the outdoors was cool. the food was good i must say. i was expecting really canned food like baked beans and that kinda stuff. but we got chicken stew and pineapple rice on the first night. and pasta on the second night! joseph's a good cook. lol~ other than that, got to know the netballers and ms lee better. also got to know new friends like william!! the guy who laughs at everything. -_-" that's a skill i gotta learn. also, our instructors were real cool! like joanne, joseph and siti. especially joseph because he was with the netballers most of the time. and thanks to his stupid jokes, it made the trek and the journy home much much more fun. "look!! why is the leaf moving? because i'm shaking it." lame joke. and not forgetting - the damned leeches. kenneth you owe me a meal~!! haha... i still can't get that stupid picture of the leech sucking on my ankle. ughhh. *shivers* morbid thought. aiite, will go sleep now. still have netballers pot luck tomorrow. *moans* i wanna sleeeeeeeeeep.

**i saw a star. i dreamt of you-

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

8:35 AM
Saturday, November 15, 2003

listening to // funky reggae music :: hi-5
feeling // excited

i'm going to belumut tomorrow!! and today is my official last day of blogging - for now. will be staying over at kathryn's for tonight and her dad will send us to school tomorrow. =D sigh, i'm feeling lazy now. gotta be in school at 10 to put down my bag and i still feel that something's amiss in my bag. prolly will go check later again. and i brought tons of lightsticks. and it's all gonna get koped away. but it's alright, at least i get to break them! so, mokxy and i will be sleeping at the door of the tent. if an animal comes, we die first. if a leech comes, we'll get sucked to death first. and it's the coldest at the ends, mokxy and i will freeze to death first. so i hope i don't get deprived of the sleeping bag.

will be going down to kallang netball centre to watch my juniors play... and prolly see rach and eve! if they come down la. =) can't wait to see eve. and she'll go nuts if she sees peilin. lol. dammit, i didn't bring my camera. but there will be another carnival on the 7th! yes!! so, more peilin pictures. yayzers. and i think i got cheated. this stupid print for free company. will get chu to call them. i want my picture back!! those goons. cheating me of my picture. wait till i complain them to CASE. aiite, time to go double check my stuff. see all you guys on wednesday!! and i'll be lost in the leech and sandfly-infested area of kluang, far away from any sign of civilisation. don't worry!! i'll be back with blood flowing in me and in one piece!! ah, whatever.

**i wish i could talk to you before i leave-

[edit]i'm back! am at kathryn's house blogging. while watching space jam. heh. and now i'm feeling... reflective?or whatever. a friend of mine said something which really struck me. "too busy or have no time for me? maybe you should just fcuking get out of my life. i have a rich 21 year old aussie as my back up." and for him she's gonna ditch so-and-so. is that her definition of a relationship? someone who has to totally devote 100% of his time to you? does it give you the right to get angry at your significant other when he needs to spend time by himself? isn't it being a little petty? if i was that petty, i bet i wouldn't even last a month with him.

having been through a relationship before, i feel that staying together doesn't mean just loving each other and sending each other lovey-dovey messages. but supporting your significant other through good times and bad times. to lend a listening ear, a helping hand. even a shoulder to cry on. you would have to learn to give and take. keeping a relationship is doesn't only take love, but also hard work.well, that's how i feel. is it her being materialistic or is it just me? well, this made me think of him again.

**i miss you-[/edit.time check // 9.43pm]

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

10:15 PM
Friday, November 14, 2003

listening to // five senses :: hi-5
feeling // childish

my face seems to be coated in oil and i can't seem to get it off. ughhh. wonder how i'm gonna survive belumut. part of me dreads it but part of me is excited. ah, whatever. did some last minute preparations today. went to queensway with netballers to buy FBT shorts then to tiff goh's house. i love patchy!! she's so cute. i wish i had a dog. =( and i like tiff goh's house. zoo-like. animal haven~ haha. then after that we went down to tiff ng's house to get timberlands. and because of my big size 7 elephant feet, gotta borrow from gladys' dad or serena's uncle. hopefully they'll allow. peilin didn't reply me on whether i can borrow her shoes or not. so forget it. don't wanna bother her.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

9:12 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2003

listening to // last summer night :: kangta
feeling // tired

my stupid knee is starting to work up again!! grrr. but anyways, i had loadsa fun today! went trekking from macritchie to bukit timah with some of the netballers and ms lee. the whole experience was like refreshing. in singapore, smelling fresh, unpolluted air is as rare as finding a panda is your backyard. and it was fun too! had a great time bonding with the girls. so as usual, we were being damn noisy on the bus. yakking and everything. and i found out that a fairsian is staying in my dream house!! and her name is winner. like -_-" diaos. one day, i will stay in there. i will renovate the house. simple stone, water, wood. zen. peace and serenity. but shan't stray from the point.

reached macritchie and i saw a squirrel eating rambutans! it was so cute i wanted to pinch it's cheeks. hur. and when that thought passed me it starting raining rambutan skins. i think it read my mind. so, start trekking! at first was still damn enthusiastic. but when we reached this army tower area. we were all starting to die. and my stupid knee was getting screwed up. but the view from that army tower was fantastic. it's like green all around you and you feel like you own the world. the tower was 6 storeys high by the way. =D the wind was great. if only i could spend some time up there again. wanna go there soon someday. but i'll need to trek for like, an hour or so. lazy bum me wouldn't wanna do that. but i might if someone would be as kind as to accompany me. =)

continued on our journey and we saw a trail of fire ants, a millipede the twice the size of my pinky, a few monkeys and alotta pretty coloured birds! and a couple of "beware of crocodiles" signs but we didn't see any crocs tho. disappointing. =( hiked out till rifle range expressway and i got so bored of walking. and we all turned into spoilt brats and we took a taxi back. at least i know where the road near yu li yuan leads to now! always wanted to walk there. and king albert park reminds me of freaky bryan. =S *shivers* went to macs to grab a bite, then headed to beach road to get trekking stuff. i bought more lightsticks!!! developed a thing for them recently. -grin- headed down to daiso to get ziplock bags. and i was suffering from a terrible throbbing head. hate it when it happens. well, i'm just gonna chill out with my orange juice now. i love oakenfold. =)

**oh, galvie updated his blog!! -finally-

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

10:14 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2003

listening to // milky way :: BoA
feeling // euphoric

eve can be such a darling! she found peilin on friendster!! i am so happy that if i'm not sitting down i would have bounced out of the window. and today, my day went rather well so far. i don't have to see elaine lim till next monday, peilin's on friendster, and now i actually have proper clear pictures of her! and it shall be on my blog. she's a cool lady with style. by the way, the picture on the left is her too. =)

well, training tomorrow. and we're gonna have yoga and dance class again. lol. can't imagine peilin doing all that stuff. and peilin agreed to lend me her shoes for trekking! wah, heavenly shoe. must wash properly when we get back then return her. hahaha. i can't wait to meet her on saturday. and i repeat, i am not ~~lesbian~~.

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo

9:21 PM
Monday, November 10, 2003

listening to // this is the night :: clay aiken
feeling // hungry

i can be such a muffhead at times. lol, i spelled obsessions wrongly! ah, what a bummer. i was so in love with my blog! now i've gotta redo everything. -_- oh well. doesn't matter. this is my new blog which i will fall in love with. i'm thinking of shifting here permanently. so my blog wouldn't be like this. public storybook. it's gonna be exclusive. oh yess. so to those reading this, you know you mean alot to me. (n_n)

well, training today and ms lium was there! crap. well, the girls said she changed - she was friendlier. i don't know how true is that. but she sure did change. as in her image la. rather funky now. and she has the same shoe as me! except that it's in the horrid green. ugh. well, so we're under this so called "netball specialist" and his name is mr goh. ironic eh? but he's quite funny. makes training seem like some dancing-cum-yoga class. interesting. think he's gonna take us very far. and he's peilin's coach too! =) he ought to be good.

went to kat's place after training to get my wallet. muffy me forgot to take it back from her after cfoo's birthday dinner at fish & co. i love that restaurant. but anyhow, baked cookies at kat's place - as usual. and i made my giant smiley face cookie. but i guess it turned out a tad too big. couldn't finish so gave it to cisco and o'neil. talked about loadsa stuff with them. what we're gonna do when we grow up, what kinda marriage we wanted blah. and as the australian slang goes, "bob's your uncle". =D i love those two girls. and no, i'm not ~~lesbian~~.

really missed you alot. and i think GOd knows. thanks for talking to me today. it cheered me up lots. saranghaeyo~~

+ with love, sherlyn` // xoxo